Entry Two

     I think that social media truly serves a number of purposes in my life. I use it to stay up to date with events going on around the world because I feel like it’s important to stay informed. I use it for entertainment purposes or even comedic relief when I really need it. I use it to stay connected in the dance world because social media plays a huge role in discovering future employers and for even staying inspired. I also use it to stay connected to both my family and friends. But I’m starting to realize how much it plays on my insecurities and how much I use it as a filler during moments in my life when I have nothing else to do. It also sometimes feels like a safe space during moments in my life when I may feel uncomfortable or out of place. For example, if I’m in an elevator with someone I don’t know. It’s become habitual to pick up my phone and avoid the awkwardness to the point where I have to now force myself to live in it and be okay with it. I will say that I do a good job of posting positive content on my page and it is never my intention to spread hate in any way. But I also feel like I don’t always fill my head with the most positive content and I’m starting to see how much it affects me. I feel like I make posts hoping that I will get a number of comments and likes. I’ve found that I like to feel validated when I post and if I post something that I think people will not like, I take it down. I truly hate that I do that but I’m glad that I’m aware of it. 

Unfortunately, I do think that I’m addicted to social media. It’s definitely become a habit because I just resort to picking up my phone the first chance that I get. I feel like it’s become a bad habit because I’m starting to realize how much time I spend on it and how I could be using that time more effectively & productively. I also use it to procrastinate and avoid my responsibilities as a student a lot of times. I think that whenever I get any free time, I’m on my phone. As soon as a class finishes or when I get home, the first thing I think to do is hop on social media. I think that I use it the most when I’m at home completely bored and I use it the least when I’m occupied with being in a class or a dance rehearsal. I want to find healthier ways to occupy my time so that I’m not consistently looking at a screen.